Cynthia Elisabeth's Personal Blog♪✿

Tahun 2019 berasa bagaikan dua masa yang berbeda, terbagi dalam dua semester. Aku merasakan rollercoaster emosi yang meroket up and down.

Aku ingin menutup tahun 2019 dengan memberikan maaf untuk diriku sendiri, cinta pada diriku sendiri, dan di tahun 2020 memprioritaskan diriku terlebih dahulu.

Semoga tahun 2020 menjadi tahun yang baik, yang bahagia, tidak ada lagi sakit hati, kebingungan, dan gusar hati.

Dan aku ingin tahun 2020 menjadi tahun yang aman dan spiritual bagiku.

I used to have a hard time with myself. I thought too much.

"Can I even do this?"

"What about if I don't succed? What if I am not capable enough?"

I doubt and keep doubting about things that had not even started.

But as time goes by.

I grow more into loving myself the way I am

The strength that I have, will optimize it

The weakness that I have, will admit it but it should not make me low, instead I know what rooms to improve.

I make mistakes.

But I learn so much from the mistakes I made. To become better and better than I used to be.

I know my journey is still long.

I just hope I can struggle with all the hardships and challenge. Far away from depression and mental illness (which I know three of my closest family members suffer from this)

I will pray that God will give me his abundance of blessings.